Hmm I'm sure most of that doesn't apply to me however I did find it all very enlightening (seems like the wrong kind of word but it did sort of open my eyes a bit more and it was - dare I say - "interesting"?)
I really don't "get" how to define "depression". It's a weird one.
My situation is (not that you asked but I'll try to be quick!) I've been ill since I was 7 (I'm 18 now) with stomach aches, sickness, fatigue, headaches - quite a few things. Since then I've been to countless doctors, nutritionists, psychiatrists etc. etc. and no-one could tell me what was wrong with me. Until I was about 15 when I got told I had Candida which is like.. basically just a label. With some pointers of how to get better. Things I should and shouldn't eat etc. Pretty early on we (my mum and I - luckily I had her to guide me on my quest) found out I was intolerant to wheat, eggs and dairy so I haven't had too much of them since I was 7 or 8.
Anyway, by the time I found out about this Candida, I was suffering mentally too - it wasn't just physical pain keeping me from going to school anymore. All the years of worrying, not knowing what was wrong with me, fearing I had some kind of horrible illness no-one knew about - and also the restrictions of my diet, being told I couldn't do things, couldn't eat things like normal people - it took its toll. Anyway, I stayed off school loads and blah blah blah DEPRESSION. Only way I can describe it, really. All the things on your "symptoms" list. But I still feel like I can't call it "depression". What IS depression??!
UGH.
I'm taking some kind of anti-depressants at the moment and they've been calming my stomach (I get panicky and tense a lot when I have to go out, to school etc.) and I think they've actually made me have a really small appetite so at least that's a plus. I don't know though.. how're they meant to make me feel?
I did feel a lot worse over the years but I've kind of got a lot better on my own after seeing a counsellor who actually knew what she was talking about (only reason I can actually understand all what I wrote above is because of her - I thought I was staying off school just because I was ill physically, I tried to forget all the times I thought I was going mad because I was crying all day - I thought I was crying from physical pain, not mental) and also just generally growing up and realising I was kind of an OK person. I don't know how or when that happened but I started liking myself more.
Anyway, sorry for rambling again - using you for therapy = over :D and thank you again for all of the (my favourite word again) interesting things you've said ^_^
Interesting is so not a complimentary-sounding word. I need a new one.
Oh and thanks for the pointer on the Archive/Site map thing - I'll continue my browsing :)
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Date: 2010-02-02 07:34 am (UTC)I'm sure most of that doesn't apply to me however I did find it all very enlightening (seems like the wrong kind of word but it did sort of open my eyes a bit more and it was - dare I say - "interesting"?)
I really don't "get" how to define "depression". It's a weird one.
My situation is (not that you asked but I'll try to be quick!) I've been ill since I was 7 (I'm 18 now) with stomach aches, sickness, fatigue, headaches - quite a few things. Since then I've been to countless doctors, nutritionists, psychiatrists etc. etc. and no-one could tell me what was wrong with me. Until I was about 15 when I got told I had Candida which is like.. basically just a label. With some pointers of how to get better. Things I should and shouldn't eat etc. Pretty early on we (my mum and I - luckily I had her to guide me on my quest) found out I was intolerant to wheat, eggs and dairy so I haven't had too much of them since I was 7 or 8.
Anyway, by the time I found out about this Candida, I was suffering mentally too - it wasn't just physical pain keeping me from going to school anymore. All the years of worrying, not knowing what was wrong with me, fearing I had some kind of horrible illness no-one knew about - and also the restrictions of my diet, being told I couldn't do things, couldn't eat things like normal people - it took its toll. Anyway, I stayed off school loads and blah blah blah DEPRESSION. Only way I can describe it, really. All the things on your "symptoms" list. But I still feel like I can't call it "depression". What IS depression??!
UGH.
I'm taking some kind of anti-depressants at the moment and they've been calming my stomach (I get panicky and tense a lot when I have to go out, to school etc.) and I think they've actually made me have a really small appetite so at least that's a plus. I don't know though.. how're they meant to make me feel?
I did feel a lot worse over the years but I've kind of got a lot better on my own after seeing a counsellor who actually knew what she was talking about (only reason I can actually understand all what I wrote above is because of her - I thought I was staying off school just because I was ill physically, I tried to forget all the times I thought I was going mad because I was crying all day - I thought I was crying from physical pain, not mental) and also just generally growing up and realising I was kind of an OK person. I don't know how or when that happened but I started liking myself more.
Anyway, sorry for rambling again - using you for therapy = over :D and thank you again for all of the (my favourite word again) interesting things you've said ^_^
Interesting is so not a complimentary-sounding word. I need a new one.
Oh and thanks for the pointer on the Archive/Site map thing - I'll continue my browsing :)